NATHAN PETERSON

SO AM I: 14 MONTHS OF LIFE, LIVING, AND LETTING GO

A collection of my writings during the 14-month life of our beautiful, terminal daughter, Olivia.

In these pages I share the lessons I learned from Olivia about being truly alive and present in life, even in the midst of fear and uncertainty.

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Also available on Amazon as Paperback and Kindle

From the book

Before Olivia, I worried that my other three kids would die. I worried every time I went to play a gig that the van would crash and I’d leave my kids fatherless. I worried I wouldn’t make enough money and we’d go homeless and my whole family would starve and die. Usually I coped by finding things I could control and hanging out there and dragging my feet on the things that mattered. It crippled me.

We’re walking through the valley of the shadow of death.

THIS. This is what that line means. It’s not for later when you’re about to die. Today, every day, every one of us is walking through the valley of the shadow of death. It follows us. We all know it’s there. Most of us ignore it, hide from it, avoid it, which cripples us.

We’re all walking through the valley of the shadow of death.

We all know it’s there.

But every now and again we’re hit with a ray of beauty. Wait, why is this beautiful? How is there life here??

What others are saying

The perfect combination of authentic heartfelt story and clear lessons for any of us to take and grow from.” — Kyle White, author of Wisconsin River of Grace
Much more than just an account of having a chronically ill child, there are very true insights about life itself here that will really make you think.
A must-read book full of hope, life, and beauty. A beautifully written, authentic look into the heart and soul of another human facing life's unexpected. Each chapter is full of gold mined through the journey of choosing to look fear full in the face and live in the moment.
Profound. I don't know exactly what I expected from this book, maybe more of a detailed what actually took place from Day to day, but what was written was so much greater. There is so much wisdom and inspiration here that is applicable to not only those facing trials, but for all of us as we navigate this thing called life!

The music

So Am I is a collection of my writings during the 14-month life of our beautiful daughter, Olivia.

I also recorded an album during this time, also called So Am I. The album is available on all streaming platforms.